We Sold A Puppy!!!!!

Well it has been a while since I have posted here but today was another exciting day. We sold the first of our litter of Yorkies. For some people it may not have been that exciting but for us it was both exciting and and depressing. After you’ve gone through all pregnancy with your favorite pet and then watched her young babies grow up right before your eyes, it’s hard to let them go.

Great thing about it we got a little extra cash because of it. Sure does come in handy when you’re raising kids like we are. But we have three more to go, two of which are a spoken for but they haven’t picked them up yet so we’ll see how quickly they go. I hope I don’t have to put an ad in the paper are really don’t want to have to pay for that just too expensive a now?

I’ll kind of be glad when they’re all gone because they do take a lot of extra time cleaning up after them making sure they’re fed giving them water couple times a day. But I do find a lot of joy in having him around.

If I had to do it over, I think we would plan is a little bit better though because we really don’t have the room set up for litter of puppies. Our houses and not all that big and if we were to make a small area in the garage that was heeded I think it would be better for all of us. We can sleep better at night and the mess would not be as much.

I don’t know if it’s always as easy with this litter seemed to go without a hitch. I’m glad of that being our first one and all. We have been thinking about getting another female and breeding and also this could actually turn into a nice little business. I’ve heard there are people that actually make a full-time living breeding dogs but I don’t want to be one of those puppy mill places.

I’ve seen documentary programs about how bad they can be but if I took care of them I don’t see how it could be that bad. It would just be a lot of work. Besides, our place is not big enough to be a puppy mill anyway. Maybe one more female and that’s it.

If we did try to make this more of a business, I think we would convert the garage into something like a candle. It actually set up quite nicely because the walls in the floor are made of material that could easily be cleaned. And at least in my mind that would be the most difficult part. Other than maybe the neighbors complaining about the dogs. Oh well, I seriously doubt if you would do it anyway but it was the thought.

Drink This Moment Up…

My husband had to be gone an overnight trip tonight for his work and it’s really lonely here at the house. The kids are in bed and the dogs have long ago gone to sleep. So it’s just me and the computer left ear alone and it feels really lonely. I kind of forgot what it was like to be alone. It’s been so long and it seems like I’m always with somebody at lease at night.

I don’t mind the daytime so much that seems more natural when I’m home here alone doing what I do the nighttime’s different it’s supposed to be shared. And tonight it’s not so makes me kind of sad. I feel bad for people who have lost their mate. I think of my mom and all she’s been through in the last seven or eight years since my dad passed away it must be really hard. I can even imagine. To be honest I don’t want to imagine.

It makes you want to appreciate every moment you have. Who would’ve ever thought an overnight business trip would turn into a philosophical discussion on my blog or a least a monologue. You know I think I’ll be a little better and do little more and appreciate a little more what I have so I will have to look back someday if I’m the one that’s left behind and wish that I had done more.

Maybe not even done more, but just enjoyed more. Savored the moment drank it up for every saying that it was worth. That’s what I want to do, I do want to vacuum the floor one more time. I want to enjoy this moment so someday if I’m alone again I can remember it. Remember what it like to enjoy this moment.

While getting kind of deep and really had no intentions of that but I’m in such a melancholy mood that it seemed very appropriate. It makes you wonder how long you have. How long will it be one year five years 20 years? Who really knows maybe it’s not years maybe it’s days. Maybe it’s only one day. Would that make me live differently if I knew it was only one day? I hope so.

I really want my priorities to be what they should be. I have been moving towards that a little more in my life. Things don’t seem quite as important as they used to. It’s not so important for me to have this or that but what I really want is to have memories and moments to drink up and savor and have enjoyed.

Yorkies and Life For Future Generations

Today is a red letter day! We had puppies, four of them in fact. They’re doing very well this is not mama’s first litter so she knows exactly what to do. And there’s very little that I need to do to take care of them.

They’re Yorkies, the cute little ones I think they’ll be about 3 pounds when their full-grown at least that’s the size that mom and dad are. You see we raise them not as a business really not because we have a male and female occasionally we do have a litter. And believe you me the extra money comes in handy.

Haven’t puppies in the house certainly changes things. They have a lot of needs not so much that I have to take care of but ones that I have to be aware of and make provision for. Mama won’t let our other dog get near the puppies so she has to be kept along with them in another room. And she has to be led out from time to time along with separate feeding and the temperature in the room needs to be kept and asked constant too.

This is I think the fourth letter for this female and it’s funny to watch how much better she is with each one. The first litter she was very panicky and didn’t really know what to do. But with this last one, she did everything in fact we didn’t even know that she was in labor until they were all born.

I suppose it’s the same as it is with humans, you know what to expect you’ve done it before you just save yourself here we go. I was thinking about that sort of thing the other day and how it relates to people that are older. I think it’s kind of a shame really, that by the time you gather all this information and experience and you’re an old person one older person then something happens you get sick and inevitably pass away. Wouldn’t it be great if you could take the wisdom of a person that has lived a whole lifetime and filter out their personality and implanted into your brain. A fantastic idea.

I’m not sure if they can ever be done it sounds kind of complicated I mean I guess some day we’ll be able to download our brain and back it up on a computer suppose that’s possible but how would you ever filter out of personality? And that would be key to the whole process otherwise you might just take on their personality and what good is that because you’ve lost yourself in the process.

But it takes someone a lot smarter than me to figure this one out and probably will never happen in my lifetime that someday maybe so my kids kids are somebody related to me maybe we’ll get the chance to to upload the wisdom of someone that’s lived a lifetime and they will have the advantage of all that experience. Just think what the human race could do with all that wisdom internalized at the beginning of a new life and then it starts to compound on itself. Those future generations will look back on us just like we do on the caveman and think poor things how sad that they didn’t understand.

I guess that’s just how it goes you can wish you could be there and be a part of that but where would that in because by that time those people will be thinking farther into the future than we can even imagine today so we just be happy with the place that we have and enjoy our time and do our best to prepare future generations for the things that they will face and have the opportunity to experience. It puts a smile on my face to think of my children might have the opportunity to do. How about you?r

What The Heck Is Wrong?

I have a real problem with the school system in our fair city. The problem is they always want the kids (or us) to spend money all the time. Every time I turn around it is $20 here $20 there and that is the cheap stuff. Sometimes it is really expensive like $300 for a field trip and the kids are in 7th and 8th grade. Can you imagine what it is going to be when they are a senior in high school? Holy crap, I am going to go broke if we have to keep this up for the next 5 or 6 years. We are struggling right now but we own our own home, can you imagine what those that are really hurting are having to do just to keep up in this community.

It makes me so mad that our society demands even of the poorest of us to keep up or feel as if we are outcast. There are some of you reading this that have felt this pain and there are probably many of you that can’t even begin to feel the humiliation of not having enough to keep up.

i was one of those in the community that grew up with a silver spoon and my mate was one that had near nothing so it has been interesting how we have developed over our years of marriage. He has brought to me the feeling of needing desperately to have all that is demanded while I have brought to him the understanding that it is a implanted necessity imposed by the corporate citizens of our society.

I wish I had an answer but for now all I feel is sadness.

Let’s Save Some Money

I had an idea for a post today, I was thinking there are a lot of us that are really struggling financially From time to time and wouldn’t it be great if we could come up with some really good ideas to help each other. I mean I know we don’t live that close probably maybe readers from all over the world. Or maybe it’s just my wishful thinking. But wouldn’t it be cool if we came up with some really great ideas of how we can help each other not struggle so much.

Some of you may think that’s kind of a corny idea. And that’s okay. I’m kind of a corny gal, LOL. But you can’t deny the fact that it would be really great if somebody came up with an idea that all of us might benefit or maybe a bunch of us could come up with ideas to. I haven’t spent much time thinking about this but I did have one thing that was kind of on my mind and I’ll share while I’m at it. I was watching the TV not too long ago and I won’t mention any names but the next vice president of the United States was talking about saving energy. I’ll let you figure out who it was.

One statement that he made, really caught my attention. He said that if each of us would just replace five lightbulbs in our homes with the new florescent bulbs. You know the curly kind, that action would have the same affect as if we took a million cars off the road in United States. Is that crazy or what?

Almost 5 years ago we started replacing the bulbs in our home with these new florescent and I can’t tell you exactly what our savings have been but I’m sure they have been substantial by now. And maybe not even from a financial standpoint. But I’m thinking more from an energy standpoint. The bulbs are expensive and they certainly don’t last as long as they say they’re going to but on the other hand they do last a long time and sometimes they really last a long time. I have had bulbs that lasted years although sadly, not all of them last that long. Every bulb in our home now is the new energy-efficient florescent bulbs.

The cool thing is now they come in a large variety of styles. It’s not just the curly bulbs anymore. They make bulbs in almost every style just the same as incandescent bulbs. You do have to look a little more because they’re not in every store and they are a little bit more expensive but for me I’ve made a commitment and it’s worth the effort. Let me give you an example I don’t have exact numbers but for instance I know you can replace a 60 W bulb with a bulb that takes about maybe 15 or 20 W and that’s at the most. So let’s pretend that we used a 20 W bulb in place of the 60 W bulb.

And let’s pretend that we use that light for four hours a day. So now we’ve saved 40 W times four hours. That’s a total of 160 W per day. Now, multiply that 160 W times 365 days a year. If my math is correct that is 58,400 W per year and that’s just one bulb. That is crazy think about it. I have four lightbulbs like that in my living room alone. I have five in my dining room I have for in my kitchen. I have two in my hallway. I have six in my bathroom. I have 10 in my bedrooms, no make that fourteen in my bedrooms’s. And you know what, a lot of those bulbs are not replacements for 60 W bulbs. Some of them I replace with the equivalent of 40 W bulbs meeting I only use somewhere between eight and 12 W per bulb in the new florescent ones. So let’s set it up real quick comedy bulbs do I have in my house?

I just had to build several quick in my head and I came up with 27 bulbs I could be off a little but the point is that’s a lot. Let’s say that those 27 bulbs only saved a total of a 40,000 W per year each. Which I think is insane because I know that some of them saved more than the example I gave earlier but let’s be conservative and say 40,000 W. Now we have 40,000 W times 27 bulbs, that equals well over 1,000,000 W per year. Now can you see how it’s possible that if every home in the United States were to replace every bulb in the house with these new light bulbs, it would be the equivalent of taking a million cars off the highways. To me that is very exciting I hope it is for you to.

New Health Kick…

Had a something way outside my comfort zone today, I actually exercised.  Well not actually exercised but I did take a walk.  And you have to admit that’s a first step (no pun intended) in my quest towards a healthier lifestyle.  Oh, and did something else too!  I drank tea instead of coffee this morning.  You know they say the black tea and even other kinds of Chile green tea and others I suppose, are supposed to be really good for you lots of antioxidants I think.

I kind of got on this kick recently as I haven’t been feeling my best.  Lotta headaches not sleeping too well at night and just not feeling very well in general.  Way too crappy for a person my age at least in my opinion.  I should be feeling better and having more energy so I decided it was time to do something about it.  Too bad I had to wait till I was not feeling very well to try to make the corrective actions.  But, as they say, better late than never.

So here is what I’ve done, I went and bought some bag salads at the store, I bought some yogurt, I bought some healthy bread, I bought some tea and I figured that the best place to start getting healthy despite what I eat.  So I’m putting good stuff and now that’s better that’s an improvement.  And I’ve actually taken a walk, not a milestone necessarily for everyone but for me it was huge.  It’s not that I’m grossly unhealthy.  I just am busy like everyone it seems these days. You know kids, cars, houses, spouse, work, etc. etc. etc.

so there you have it, my new resolution even thought it’s not New Year’s I figured what the heck, what better time to start this new health kick, then now.  So if you guys have any ideas, anything that’s worked really well for you, let me know.  I would love to hear your suggestions.  I mean we are tiny in this together sense if you don’t feel good and I don’t feel good in everybody doesn’t feel good then work out like screwed up.

Oh and one more thing, maybe you want to start something to.  It’s not very hard to take a walk.  And to be quite honest I’m starting to like the salads.  Believe me I’m not turning into some sort of health freak but hey, wouldn’t it be better if I felt better?

Deep Questions When The Laundry Is Piling Up

Finding the rhythm of my day sometimes is the most difficult part of what I do all day long.  You know what I mean, after the kids are gone to school and everything seems to have calmed down a little bit then what?  Do you sit down and have a couple coffee?  You immediately start in on your chores?  Do you call a friend and chat for a while?  And how many times have you done those things especially the ones that weren’t on your agenda and you ended up losing the day totally?

Then what?  How do you recover these scurry around and wait for something to happen?  Aren’t you immediately jump in and do whatever it was you needed to do in getting done in record time?  I know that’s what I try to do.  I try to recover but sometimes it’s just too much.  The day is lost and there I am sitting in a puddle of I didn’t get anything done today and nobody cares.  Nobody listening nobodies around nobody feels my frustration but I do.  I feel the frustration burning deep inside deep inside my heart because I wish I’d done something more today.

But there you go another of those characteristics of life.  Part of the struggle part of the reason we’re here, to learn.  To learn how to be disciplined to learn how to respond instead of react, to learn what to do when faced with the situation with no clear answers.  I think those are the reasons we live those of the reasons that we came to this earth in the first place.  To learn something that we had learned before.  Besides what’s the point if all you do is the same thing you did before?  Wouldn’t it get a little bit boring.

We came here to explore to expand to investigate to learn to experience.  That’s why I think were here.  I mean I don’t mean to detract from what Jesus did on the cross but I’m talking about just us in our daily life.  So when I’m having one of those really bad days, when I don’t seem to be able to accomplish much of anything, I think about why I’m here.  And I really here to get the laundry finished?  Am I really here to make sure that every dust bunny is gone from every corner of my house?  Or am I here to make sure that my family feels loved today or that somehow I touched another person’s life and maybe just a little bit easier or clearer.  I made their path just a little bit straighter and held her hand while they went to a really tough spot.  Those are the reasons I think I’m really here.  To hell with the dust bunnies, and to hell with the laundry, I have an opportunity because I’m fortunate to have the time to make a difference in the People’s lives around me and I can start that at any time of the day or night and there is no agenda.

Another Day In Paradise…

Another beautiful day in paradise…  Well I wouldn’t go that far but at least I’m having a good.  The kids are off to school now and here I am once again sitting in front of my computer waiting for inspiration to fall down from heaven upon my head.  Somehow it’s just not coming but then again when does it come when I’m ready.  It usually comes when I’m knee-deep in laundry.  Are in the middle of cooking another fabulous meal.  That’s when the real ideas come, that’s when inspiration strikes the most.

If only I had a way to record what was going through my brain at that very moment.  I would be a world-famous author by now I suppose.  My thoughts would be turned into novels well maybe not novels but at least profound posts for this blog.  I wish I was more technically inclined there probably is some sort of solution for my problem may be some sort of software that records my thoughts or if not my thoughts that leaves my words.  But how can you even speak the thoughts that are going through your head when you’re helping the 13-year-old with their homework or vacuuming the carpet for the third time today.

Oh woe is me, if I could only find solutions to my problems my life would be as they say perfect.  But it’s not so the struggle continues and on we go day in and day out looking for solutions to our problems hanging onto our dreams and praying for some relief.  Somehow I don’t think is going to come.  His life was never meant to be paradise.  Even those with seemingly unlimited resources have their troubles so that’s theft: not the answer.  Money never really solve anyone’s problems in the long term.  I should like to give it a try but at least that’s what people tell me.

Speaking of money, and don’t we all, it sure would be nice to have a little bit more but I suppose that’s the battle cry of everyone with a family just a little bit more.  But then, when you get a little bit more it never seems to be quite enough.  As they say there’s too much month left at the end of the money.  These are some of the thoughts that crossed my mind while I’m vacuuming and what doing laundry and some of the things I wish I could write about more.  Maybe I will someday maybe inspiration will meet opportunity and not top with that perfect post.  The one that will change the world well not change the world but it leads to be interesting.  Until then thanks for listening and I hope your day has been as good as mine.

Caught In The Middle…

Do you ever feel like you’re caught in the middle?  Do you know what I mean?  I feel caught in the middle all the time!  It’s like I’m always the one who has to bridge the gap between the warring parties in my house.  Why me?  Who died and made me judge?  I don’t want to be the judge.  I never wanted to be the judge.  So why I doing?

For instance, my parents show up for the weekend.  That’s fine no problem but now we have to decide what to do.  My mate wants to spend the day working on the house.  You see we’ve been married long enough that my parents coming to visit is no longer a big deal.  He doesn’t have to pretend to be interested or change his agenda on their behalf.  And usually that works pretty well.  He does his thing and we do arts but occasionally they clash.  Not my parents and my husband but our agendas.  So there I am stuck in the middle between my mate and my parents.

Personally I think they should work it out themselves and they should leave me out of it but the problem is if I don’t keep peace I pay for it on both sides.  He’s mad they are mad nobody’s really talking in that uncomfortable silence permeates every corner of our house.  It screens fix this.  So that’s my dilemma is another day at our house filled with drama and turmoil.

But you know what I wouldn’t trade it for anything I love my family, I love my parents and no matter what it takes I’ll do my best to make it all work.  We are all just humans, selfish and self-centered as we are so I suppose it’s just part of life and part of being a wife.

Life At My House…

What crazy Day it’s been so far.  I have been trying to get this blog started to all morning.  But wow, the things that keep me from doing what I want to do.  First of all, or I should say most important of all I hardly slept last night.  For some reason I kept waking up almost every hour.  And I know what this will do, when you go without ram sleep.

We have a new litter of puppies to start with, and mother seems a bit restless at night.  She needs to go out two or three times at night which is part of the problem in getting a whole night’s sleep.  Then you’ve got this crazy weather we’ve been having where one second it’s windy and then it gets cold.  And our house creaks quite a bit when it’s windy so that keeps me up too.

So I wake up late this morning, of course.  The houses are racked from last night because I just didn’t feel like doing anything and to have to face that after a sleepless night is a bit disheartening.  The kids were actually helpful as morning, they made their own lunch.  I had made breakfast but was busy with other things and they jumped right in.  That in itself is a miracle but a miracle I’m thankful for.  We have been working with them for so long trying to get them to be more responsible.  Finally, out of the blue they decide to be responsible.  I’m so happy that they have started to do so.

Our daughter is taking to the task of being responsible much more quickly than our sun.  She is only a year older but quite honestly if forced into the situation she could probably run the household pretty well.  On the other hand our son would probably suffocate in a sea of dirty clothes, trash and dirty dishes.  He just doesn’t seem to get it yet that you have to pick up after yourself.

Am I the only one who experiences this with a teenage boy?  Probably not but I’m not really interested in how other teenage boys act it’s mine that I’m concerned about.  I get that excuse from a lot of parents that he’s just been a teenage boy but I really don’t care.  To be he’s old enough to be taking on the responsibility of a young man and I intend to do everything I can to help him do so.

It is so different than when I was young.  It seems like only yesterday that I was his age but life is so different than, it makes me sad.  When I was a teenager I was expected to do my chores every day without being told.  And although sometimes I would shirk my responsibility, for the most part I think I was a responsible child.  Even my mother tells me so.  So that’s the place I come from when I expect him to do the same.  But man is it different with him.  I have to write him every day to finish his chores and if it weren’t for the fact that I’m trying to teach him, I would do it myself.  It would be much much easier.

Well this much we have accomplished, the blog is up, the kids are off to school, the dogs are napping and I’ve had my second cup of coffee.  I’m about to start the laundry so things are not so bad.  Here I am in my pajamas riding at my computer hoping to make a connection with someone out there on the world wide web.  My life could be worse right?

I could be slaving away in some key vocals somewhere, or have some boss breathing down my neck.  While my children in essence raised themselves.  So all in all I’m quite happy even without the sleep and as frustrated as I am trying to figure out what to do with my hair responsible teenage boy.